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I've got nothing original in my head

my thoughts are dead

it's already been said.

I've lost my inspiration

I'm afraid to look to closely in the dark

It's too hard to start

I can't find anything motivating

and i'm too used to waiting

noting in this life feels free anymore

there is nothing in my brain

i long ago finished going insane

i'd have to do drugs

to feel like myself again

i have no identity

i gave up long ago

on getting free

cuz what's the point of being free

when there's nowhere interesting to go?

all that creativity is for someone else

i put my dreams on the shelf

and when i wasn't looking

someone came in the nite

and stole them away

all that's left inside of me

is an endless agony

of vague wanting

but not knowing what it is

anymore.

i know longer have thoughts in my head

they stopped making sense those things i said

and i'm nothing but the living dead

and i've forgotten how to fall asleep.

i'm gripped by moments of unreality

blind panic

anger

a homicidal fantasy

why the fuck doesn't life add up

to identifiable reality?

my words have no rhythm

i lost my soul

i have no ambition to move me anymore

each step i take

leads to further disaster

the harder i try

the more chaos swirls faster

help i can't see!

my vision is failing

i don't know why this grief

is hailing

down

on me.

it seems i've been writing the same page repeatedly

in different ways

played to contrast

but really the same.

i'm lost

alone

pissed off

confused

i never know what the fuck to do

i'm to old too just blindly believe

but look to young to know what's good for me

my thoughts don't match my personality

nor do they match the outside of me

why this fear?

is it because when i sought the Truth

i realized this is the biggest Illusion of all?

no one likes my attitude

i'm not sure What i've got to prove

so i just don't bother to.

what difference does it make anyway?

i have no roots

i've lost good friends

i'm all alone at the end

no one to trust

i've got no faith

always looking behind me

sick of being afraid

slowly dying inside

consumed by rage

not sure how much more i can take

nothing clicks

or falls into place

just more chaos as i fall further from grace

i used to hope i used to dream

i used to care and have beliefs

i thought i knew where i wanted to go

who knew i could sink this low?

my life feels empty

what's in it for me?

everywhere i look

people have given up

and now

i too

no longer

give a fuck